Nobody Listens, I don’t matter. You can imagine these words being uttered from the mouth of a teenager locked away in a darkened room. But what if it’s from a thirtysomething who appears to have it all? An anonymous post sharing precisely that.
You listen when it matters to you; you hear when you want something. For me, I talk. Nobody listens.
I can be by myself; there’s no one to talk to, to forget what I’ve said.
It matters because I matter, to me. Sometimes.
I’m the butt of your jokes; I’m on the receiving end.
Your anger, your miserableness, your lack of interest, your boredom; It’s not my fault.
You’re not the star of your story, so it must be, my fault?
I don’t matter.
Countless apologies, empty meanings, empty promises; they don’t matter because you don’t mean it.
You want promotions. You work for it. You put in the effort.
You want a tv, a car, beautiful things; you get them because you want them.
I get the empty apologies and sorrowful looks. I don’t matter.
You belittle me in front of people, your work associates, and my family.
You get laughs; it makes you feel good; I don’t matter.
You want me to be by your side, when you want me to, just to be there so that I can be seen.
My conversations can be shared amongst your fans, but I don’t matter.
When you want me, when you need me, and when you’re hurting inside? I matter.
I’m your rock; your equal; I’m everything you want and more.
I’m a goddess, a life saver, your fix.
Only for that moment.
You got what you wanted.
You’re better; I’m worse, it hurts.
I’m sorry for not being enough.
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